I wanted to post some pictures we took with Scott's phone from the hospital. I just got my memory card so this will most likely be the last of the phone pictures!! YEEEE HAWWW!
First I wanted to address some of my peeps who have been asking how I am. To be honest I am still walking in joy because of Emily's tremendous progress, (75% of her cancer in her neck is gone and 65% of her cancer in her lungs is gone!!!) but at the same time this is all feeling really heavy to me. I have let myself carry this huge weight of a child with cancer instead of just letting God carry it for me. I'm just really tired and I don't want to carry it anymore. I have cried out to Jesus and asked Him to take this burden from us and to not only carry the cancer but to carry our whole family.
It isn't just Emily, Scott and I who are effected by this. Our other children are effected and our family and friends. If you could please pray for them I would really appreciate that. They are all carrying this scary thing called cancer with us and I can see the weight in their eyes. I see them weary and scared just like us. These are all my most favorite people in the world and it breaks my heart to see them hurt so.
Anyway, I'm giving this to God today and I'll give it to Him again tomorrow. I will just keep letting Him carry us through this because my flesh just can not.
Thank you, all of you amazing internet people...no friends...no family. I feel like you are all my family and I am SO blessed to have each and everyone of you loving us like Jesus.
If you're wondering why I being so sappy this morning....well...I'm drinking a Red Bull!
OK, now for the pictures....
First I wanted to address some of my peeps who have been asking how I am. To be honest I am still walking in joy because of Emily's tremendous progress, (75% of her cancer in her neck is gone and 65% of her cancer in her lungs is gone!!!) but at the same time this is all feeling really heavy to me. I have let myself carry this huge weight of a child with cancer instead of just letting God carry it for me. I'm just really tired and I don't want to carry it anymore. I have cried out to Jesus and asked Him to take this burden from us and to not only carry the cancer but to carry our whole family.
It isn't just Emily, Scott and I who are effected by this. Our other children are effected and our family and friends. If you could please pray for them I would really appreciate that. They are all carrying this scary thing called cancer with us and I can see the weight in their eyes. I see them weary and scared just like us. These are all my most favorite people in the world and it breaks my heart to see them hurt so.
Anyway, I'm giving this to God today and I'll give it to Him again tomorrow. I will just keep letting Him carry us through this because my flesh just can not.
Thank you, all of you amazing internet people...no friends...no family. I feel like you are all my family and I am SO blessed to have each and everyone of you loving us like Jesus.
If you're wondering why I being so sappy this morning....well...I'm drinking a Red Bull!
OK, now for the pictures....
Emily in the waiting room while we waited for her room to be prepped. She is very nervous here thinking about the catheter.
I love Emily in this picture!
Scott and Emily in her room waiting for radiation.
Emily
Me and Scott
Emily again.
Emily's team of experts strategically trying to MacGyver the catheter.
19 comments:
Praying so hard for you right now... I'm so sorry about the catheter (spelling) as well... I have horrible memories about that experience as well when I was Emily's age (different reasons why I had to have one) but it was horrible. My heart aches for her. I still have nightmares about watching my daughter have to have one as well.
Continue giving it to the Lord each day... every minute dear. One step at a time... sometimes it's all we can handle, but it's all we're asked to do. I'm lifting you and your family in prayer. Thanks for sharing your journey with us.
Love,
Amy
Oy, those catheters must really be horrible! My daughter is just getting out of the hospital today and was in a lot of pain from bladder surgery and a cath.
My heart goes out to you all as well. I'm praying for your family and that God would give you all His peace and strength!
Emily, aren't you so glad it's all over? I'm praying for you sweetie. I have a daughter exactly your age. You're very brave and wow, your parents are so proud of you! We all know it's very very hard sometimes. But hang in there and do what the doctors say. And remember, people all over the world are praying for you!
Crystal and Scott....praying! I'm glad you're more hopeful, knowing the treatments are working! Praise God for that!
Christie
Crystal,
I honestly cannot imagine what you are going through, I won't pretend to...but what I do see is two incredible parents and their children coming together at this time, encouraging each other and the readers of this blog with their strength. You are very strong and that strength obviously comes from God, which shines through in your writing.
Be blessed Crystal and know our family is praying for yours.
crystal, I've said it before, and I'll say it again: You truly have a gift to be able to put into words your emotions so well. You really should save these journalled thoughts and publish them. Your brutal honesty and outpouring of your soul is a beautiful expression of faith, love, and hope! Thank you so much for sharing this with us all.
I have been reading your blog and wanted to say thank you for posting these pictures ... I appreciate the updates and the pictures! Praying for God's miraculous work of healing in Emily and for wisdom for the doctors, for peace and rest for the entire family.
Blessings!!
What a brave girl...I'm so amazed she was smiling in spite of being in the hospital. We've been praying for her, and will continue! God bless your family. Denise
May God pour forth His blessings upon your whole family, granting you all peace, grace, wisdom, and healing power in Jesus' Name.
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Thanks for keeping us all up-to-date! I'm so thankful for all the good news!! I think of you guys often, and look forward to the day when we'll meet in person.
HERE, THERE, or in the AIR!!!
Love and prayers,
~Leah
Hi,
I read your blog all the time and pray for Sweet Precious Emily every single day I have never ever missed a day!!! but as you said there are other people who are affected by cancer and we tend to forget. I will keep you and your family also in my prayers, I have a little girl same age as Emily and I dont' know how I could do it. you are your family have been through alot. I would be tired like you. But you are putting this all in Gods hands now and he WILL take care of this burden for you. I hope everything continues to go well. God bless you and your precious family
deezie
Crystal, my dear, dear friend, I have no gracious or kind or lovey words to speak as I read your post. Only 4 come to mind...
LORD! I H.A.T.E. CANCER!
After watching it steal my Mom's life, a dribble at a time, for 3 yrs, most of the time I can remain filled with faith and hope and prayerfully go after this thing. BUT, there are times, like tonight, when I look in Emily's beautiful face and I see the weariness - I know it well, I saw it in my Mom's face too - and everything in me cries out: I HATE CANCER! COME QUICKLY LORD JESUS AND CRUSH IT UNDER YOUR HEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As for the loving words part - I DO love you - and Emily and I ache for the weight you are carrying and wish I were close enough to carry it with you, in service to you and your precious family.
Much love, my dear
Hi, Crystal~
Thanks for the lovely post on my blog. Do you'd never heard "here, there or in the air"? I love that one. I say it to people when we part IRL, too. It's so true, when your friends are believers. We never know what tomorrow may bring, we never know when the next chance we will have to see a loved one... so it's so perfect to be able to say "HERE, THERE, or in the AIR"!!! :)
How is Emily feeling now that the treatment is behind her? Is she back on her meds? Feeling a little more energy yet? I'm still praying for you guys, for your marriage to remain strong through these trials... for your health and well-being as you deal with the financial and emotional stresses of all of this.... and of course for complete healing for your sweet daughter.
Your friend from afar,
~Leah
Just checking in on you... hope you're doing better. You know you're in my prayers dear sister.
Love,
Amy
Crystal,
I'm so sorry that you and your family have to go through this. I have no wise words, no concept of how painful, frustrating, exhausting and trying Emily's illness must be. All I can say is that even if we've only poked each other a few times online, it seems as though we really know each other. Your daughter is absolutely beautiful, and God holds her (as He holds each of us) in the palm of his hand always. Just keep giving Him your burdens, even ones that seem silly or trivial. Jesus will see you through.
With love and prayers,
Chloe
Emily is an amazing and very brave kid. I am glad things are finaly looking up.
Much Love, Missy
WOW there are so many amazing comments here I'm just overwhelmed...
Amy ~ As usual thank you so much for your prayers and constant friendship! You have been steadfast in loving us this past year and I can never tell you enough what it has meant to me and my family!!
{{{BIG HUGE HUGS}}}
Anne ~ Thanks so much for stopping by to let us know you're praying...we can never hear that enough!
Ya, those catheters sure are annoying. I have heard from many different women this last week how for even them as adults it was incredibly painful. After Emily got some Tylenol she did much better and said it didn't even hurt coming out, YAY!!!!
How is your little girl doing after surgery??
Christie (crikle) ~ Hi friend! {{{HUGS}}}
Christy ~ Aw, seriously your comment made me feel soooo good. I needed to hear that, so thank you!! And thank you SO MUCH for praying for our girl and tell your family thank you too!!!!!! =)
Sam ~ You can tell me that a million times if you want!! What an AWESOME and generous compliment!! I LOVE writing and always wish I could be better so thanks for the confidence in me!! I can't even tell you how great of a compliment this is to me!! I wish I could write a book, seriously. I just don't think I would have anything interesting to say though or how to piece one together.
Thanks a ton Sammy to you and your wowgirl for also being so steadfast in your prayers for Emily and your friendship to us!!
*hugs* =)
Hi Heather!!! Thanks for leaving me a comment to let us know you're praying!!! Like I said to the others it means the world to us!!! I hope to see more of you around here!! =)
Denise ~ THANK YOU!!!!! =oD Do you still have a blog anywhere?
Abiga ~ Amen, and thank you!!!!!!!!!
Leah ~ I love you!!!! {{{HUGS}}}
Emily is feeling like her old self again, happy and silly and working hard!
You are too good to me Leah!!
Deezie ~ WOW EVERYday!! I better start posting more, lol!! Thanks for continuing to check in!! Feel free to comment anytime, I would love to get to know you better!!! Thank you so much for letting me know you're praying!!
Dawn C. ~ Where would I be with out you!!! I have no words to tell you what your friendship and sisterhood has meant to me. The way you have reached out to me and my family has changed my heart and the way I want to reach out to others. Thank you for loving me like our Father and for being His faithful servant. I love you more than any words I can type or say or breathe. Thank you for loving me and being my friend and holding my hand every step of this journey. I love you forever.
Chole ~ I have a feeling you and I are going to become great friends, even if it is online!! Thank you too for your kind words and prayers and for just letting us know you're out there praying!! *hugs*
Missy ~ Thanks Mis! Scott got your card today and was giddy that you remembered. NOT surprised that you did just giddy because you're so good at sending cards and letting people know you're thinking of them. We love you!
It's easy with a Palm Pilot!
Much love to all....Missy
Your entire post was beautiful, from Emily's nervous expression to her happy smile, to your truthful, honest emotions, and prayer request. I am in tears, but so very happy for you, and the wonderful results, though not as much as we had all prayed, but still oh so wonderful. You and your family and friends will continue to be in my prayers and thoughts. You are always on my mind. *hugs*
Sounds like Emily is doing good after the last treatment. Good to hear!
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