Facebook Tag

This is something I was tagged for a million times on Facebook (Still don't have a Facebook? Get with it and get one!!! After that look me up, Crystal Starr Kunze).

I tag Emily.

In no particular order of importance, except the first one. =)

1.) I am truly, madly, deeply, head over heals in love with Jesus Christ, this is my identity.
2.) I love to have deep meaningful conversations and feel a need to connect with people on a deep level. I am often too insecure and prideful to start the the deep conversations though. =/
3.) I love to make stuff and I mean LOVE! I have so much fun making things that I think are pretty and I love to make things for my friends to make them feel loved.
4.) I am completely nuts-o insane for my husband. He's my very best friend and my most favorite person in the whole world. He's sexy, he drives me nuts, he makes me laugh, he makes me feel safe, he makes me feel beautiful, he's brilliant, he can fix just about anything, he's musical and has the best taste in music, he loves our kids, he loves me, he works hard to connect with me, he is always growing and thinking, he's a brilliant writer, he really good at communicating his thoughts, he has an amazing work ethic and works hard, most of all he loves Christ.
5.) I'm nuts about my friends too. I have really great friends and they all matter so much to me. I would love to move somewhere south and get a cutesy southern accent and be warm. BUT, I could never ever leave my friends (or my family!!). I want to look back and have lots of memories of people I loved and not memories of just being warm and talking cutesy.
6.) I want to have more kids. I would really like to adopt but they make it so hard. I want a big family and want to be surrounded by my kids and their kids when I'm old. Yep, I want to have more kids, whether it be through adoption or IVF, I want more.
7.) Stephanie Stanger is my best friend. She completely accepts me for who I am, the good, the bad, the ugly, and the REALLY ugly. She is more than a friend to me, she is my sister. She has always been in my life and I pray she always is. She is my person.
8.) I'm a big sinner and struggle to do the right thing but I do try, and try again, and again, and again.
9.) Jami Vander Kooi is my other best friend. She is my rock and is always Jesus to me. She also loves me unconditionally and is always here for me even when she is so far away. She is always kind and gentle with me and makes me feel treasured. Life with out her would be incomplete.
10.) I'm a vacillater who is married to an avoider. BUT we're both aware of it and are constantly working on communicating and enriching our marriage. <3
11.) I am constantly trying to learn about myself and how I can grow and be more of the person God intends me to be. The things I struggle with the most are anger, jealously, and pride.
12.) I desire to be close to every one of my friends. I don't like lukewarm relationships. I want the real deal and real connection, I don't mind if it gets messy.
13.) I don't like perfection. I don't like things to be tidy and neat. I like things to look lived in and loved. I like lots of elements and details and I love color (it shows in my wardrobe, my scrapbooking style, and in my home). Life isn't perfect, it's full of messiness and hard things and I think my house reflects my life. When it's messy it just may mean that inside I'm messy and feeling like I'm falling apart. It may mean that I'm busy and enjoying my life with my family and friends. It could also just mean I'm being lazy. When it's tidy it may mean that for that moment I have things together and life is moving along nicely. It may also mean that I'm hiding something and I'm miserable. It could also just mean that I had a lot of energy that day. =) Life is messy and I don't want to miss out on it.
14.) I don't care if I'm 30 (almost 31) and dress young. I want to wear what I love and not care what other people think (but really we all care what other people think, most of us do anyway). I love pretty things and love to express how I feel by wearing pretty things.
15.) I have a sentimental heart and can easily become attached to things that help me hang on to special memories. Even when I get a gift that isn't something I would normally like, I usually fall in love quickly because I LOVE that someone thought enough of me to give it to me.
16.) I wear my heart on my sleeve. It's no secret when I'm hurting, or sad, or happy, or angry. I have a hard time concealing my feelings. But boy do I try, or I think I do?
17.) I admire my sister-in-law, Katie. I admire her discipline, her fire to be real and authentic, her constant desire to keep her eyes on Jesus, and that she admits when her heart is weary and weak. I desire to continue to grow in our relationship and to be deeply connected to her. I learn so much from her just by watching the way she lives her life.
18.) I love my family (my parents, sisters, aunts, uncles, grandparents) they are loud, crazy, and chaotic BUT they are REAL. My family loves each other and they are always there for one another. Everybody knows everything about everyone, there are no secrets (or if there are they always get out, that's what happens with sisters!!).
19.) I want to renew my vows with Scott. I can barely remember my wedding (nearly 12 years ago) and I feel that I am in a much different place now than I was then. I just really would love to re-commit myself to Scott and celebrate the marriage and family we have built together.
20.) I struggle with clinical depression and even though I do, I am VERY happy. I believe that I have the best life in the world. I don't dream about wanting to go to college, or getting some fancy job, or some other life. I am living my dream. It's a dream I never knew I wanted (can you believe I swore I would never have kids?!! Ask Kim!). Sure I complain and struggle and have had more hard times than I can count. BUT that's life, and I love it, for better, for worse.
21.) I'm cheesy and sappy and love all things girly and 80s. Cyndi Lauper is my fashion hero!
22.) I'm very shy and insecure and often times that makes me miss out on a lot of life and out of the deeper relationships that I desire so much. This too, is something I'm working on.
23.) I've developed a weird obsession for Owls (in a decorating sense).
24.) I've never been out of the country, I'd love to go to Rome one day, just because that is where my Scottie wants to go. <3
25.) I believe my spiritual gifts are compassion and exhortation.

26.) Bottom line, I'm not perfect, I make loads of mistakes and screw up everyday, I don't always say what I should and I definitely say things I shouldn't. I am open minded and I'm not set in my ways and I pray I never will be. The older I get I realize I really know absolutely nothing, EXCEPT for the TRUTH, who is Jesus. I want to be forever teachable and welcoming to any truths about me, even the hard ones.

I would like to share with you what makes me complete. I don't claim to have found the Truth, but I know it has found me. . . The only thing that isn't meaningless to me is Jesus Christ and the way he set me free. This is all that I have. This is all that I am. ~Sara Groves